Well no, life was not what it seemed in reality- I always remind myself that's those are just movies to grab the viewer's attention emotionally. Quite frankly, that's all it will be- a movie.
Anyways, as I was saying you just never know what life may throw at you, life is so unpredictable. Do I believe we are more equipped and stronger than we think? Yes absolutely! As I was in and out of the different institutions for mental health, it made me feel like a low life and that my life was already over. I can honestly say since I was a little girl people had already been rooting for me because in their eyes I was someone special, no ordinary girl but extraordinary.
When I couldn't be “that girl” for them I felt like a failure and that I contradicted everything great thing they said about me. I thought to myself, “what do I do now?” At that point I thought suicide was the only way I could escape guilt, embarrassment, ridicule, pain, and just like in general. I've made many attempts to take my life but this last time in particular I felt different, I gained a whole new perspective on life, I wanted more- there was more to life for me that was yet to be revealed. Days upon days I began to reflect on everything I've encountered in my life.
Through most of it I realized that I was giving MY power to everything and everyone but myself- I didn't want that any longer. So there I was with CHEETAH Movement! I've never eveeeeer imagined myself advocating for selfharm and suicide prevention. Heck, I never even imagined going through it myself. I am much happier than I've ever been- there's always still some way to go in life and some mountains to climb but I've made it this far, so why not continue the climb?
It's alot great supporters with CHEETAH Movement, I never imagined it getting all the coverage/support that it did/does get esp from celebs such as Meagan Good, Lil MO, Christina Milian, Michelle Williams, Andra Day, Erica Campbell.. to name some. It's all beyond my wildest dreams. I'm so proud of myself- through this journey I've gained more strength, perspective, knowledge, self expression, and support. I am a CHEETAH girl and today I stand tall and strong with my battle wounds inside and out.
Now I ask you, do YOU think we are more equipped/stronger than we think? What obstacle(s) has made you use those tools?
P.S. Exciting things coming with CM! Be on the look out!! ✨🐆
This article is absolutely amazing!! I do believe we are stronger than we think. Everything we need to be great is already inside of us, we just have to unlock it. Going through my own mental health challenges(depression,self harm) has made me want to explore my knowledge of mental health even further. My major in college is Psychology and with that I plan to be a poetry therapist. I figured my gift of poetry will also be my tool to help other people as well. My obstacles have made me look at things in a whole different light. Thank you for the CHEETAH movement and keep inspiring!!!
ReplyDeleteThat's so great! It's my pleasure! Your poetry is OUT OF THIS WORLD! Thank you for inspiring ME!❤ And so is it just mental health that you want to cover or something more specifically. We need more like you. You will be great, I see it already! :) xo
DeleteThank you so very much and mental health is what I want to cover(all aspects of it if possible) ❤
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