For months, I've had this obsession with the word "fat" but in a bad way. I've looked in the mirror constantly analyzing myself from my waist to my cheek bone structure. I've also taken more pictures in the mirror than I usually do as a way to reassure myself that I'm not fat. I recall a few weeks ago about to take a picture, then staring at myself crying minutes upon minutes. I literally put myself down for about an hour and I felt like crap even more after doing so, like it was some sort of validation. I even had a troll call me fat recently and it added to the stress of already considering myself fat. Weight has always been a thing I've struggled with for so long. Either I would eat too much because I didn't wanna look "sick" or anorexic" or eat too little in fear of being called "fat" or "overweight."
Admittedly, growing up, fat has always been used as a bad word and seen as a bad thing and people who were considered fat at my school or in my life would go through hell. Too many times, we associate being fat with being unhealthy and that's not always the case. Studies from BBC news show that looking at data from over 43,000 US people, they found that being overweight did not pose a health threat. Also, a study from Daily Mail provides us with information on why skinnier people can be unhealthier than fat people. (https://www.dailymail.co.uk/health/article-6304471/Why-skinny-people-die-fat-diseases-fat-people-healthier-think.html)
Today, after realizing that it's what you put inside of your body and your inner health that really matters - I, indeed, have a newfound outlook on the word "fat." If I'm fat, I'd rather be fat and kind than fat and mean-spirited. The only kind of fat that is bad for you is if you're fat and unkind. Being fat isn't a crime, you aren't a disgrace or waste. You're just a human with an extra set of curves and that's okay. See being fat isn't bad after all, right? The next time someone calls you fat, tell them to "come along and ride the wave!"
|Me embracing my "fat"|