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A Personal Message From Kenidra about Bullying

A Moving Interview w/ actor Russell Andrews

Russell Andrews of Insecure, Michael Jackson: This is it, Runaway Island, Straight Out Of Compton, and more. Russell, I believe, has changed the game in the acting world. In some ways, he is given less credit than he should be given. His drive for his craft, children, and life in general is beyond moving. He, too, suffer from depression where he would go days reflecting and just staring while on his sofa. Let me honest - I've never saw a man so honest about his struggles or even admitting to suffering from depression until I met Russell. Him and I got a minute to catch up and chat:

At what age did you start acting?

"I started acting professionally at 24, though I'd done some things in high school including 1st place city of Houston pantomime."


When did you realize you dealt with depression?

"I knew I needed help but was clinically diagnosed as severely depressed 3 years ago. I asked for references and was given 3 business cards by my regular doctor. 2 had photos and different artwork. 1 was a plain white card with name and PhD, address and number. I took that one and took myself to the office. I was embarrassed to do it but my life and that of my children depended on it."



Do you think being an actor gives you that outlet to express yourself? What does it do for you?

"Being an actor is difficult in a sense that sometimes art imitates life and sometimes our experiences good and bad show up in the process."


Do you think you could ever share your story about depression someday?

"I’d like to share my battle with depression.  I’m reluctant because I fear people will think I’m doing it for publicity. On the other hand, it may help someone... like you."


During a scene, i.e in Runaway Island, do emotions become too intense sometimes? Do you feel like your authentic self in that moment or do you despise being vulnerable?

"Runaway Island was a lifetime experience. I was so emotionally and spiritually empty as a man even before the audition. My marriage was essentially over. Lots of details there. I don’t hate her and I’m not angry anymore, but I’m not very forgiving. I was in the middle of a career slump. When I auditioned I was the last person on the last day of weeks of casting. The director saw me in a short film she was helping her friend edit on her computer. Ironically, I lost my daughter in that film, also. She asked her friend do my info. What happened in that scene happened in the audition. The lines were easy but I had no idea all of that emotion was coming. I (Russell) was already hurt and tired and life just took over. I’m not afraid to be vulnerable. My fear is not being believed. Honestly, in our business, if we’re concerned about being believed were no “present” in the scene. Always something to work on."

Who is the driving force or forces in your life?

"My moms presence and the desire to give my children the best opportunities I can are my driving forces. They are my breath."


How important is mental health to you? Why? Were you afraid at one point to acknowledge your depression?

"Mental, physical and spiritual health work in tandem. Neither works completely without the other. Poor mental health can show up physically and vice verse. Spiritual health balances us and our faith allows to deal with whatever happens. Acknowledging depression felt like failure. I’m 56 yrs old, a child of the 60’s. I’m from the south (Huntsville and Houston, TX) and as a young black man, with a very old school, little educated father, I unfortunately wasn’t raised to expose vulnerability. That’s not at all a good thing, but it’s the way it was."

Has any posts by CHEETAH Movement ever inspired you?

"Many of your Cheetah Movement posts have inspired me. I wont attempt to read your mind or assume I know what’s best for you... just know that you have strong and you are the midst of a tremendous success story. But you cannot give up. Even your worst days can inspire someone."

 
What  would you say to others that deal with depression?

"For others suffering or think they’re suffering with depression... talk, humble yourself and ask for help."

"A Heart Of Hope" Book Release



"Amidst a time when resources are diminishing for families, and the focus of the world is shifting, one young woman shows us all the true meaning of the word "survivor".  Her journey (documented via a series of photos) takes us from innocence, through trauma, to redemption, and shows us the true light of the human spirit."






"A Heart of Hope" is a book about a young girl who's life was in so much turmoil. Depression, self-harm, and self doubts had taken her over. She was simply dark. She had hope but no belief in herself during that time in her life. Her self-esteem was crushed - she had little to no love for herself. She had spent most of her dark days in the psych, where she felt she didn't belong. When she wasn't in the ward, she'd usually be at home isolated cutting herself and just feeling dark. One day, she had planned an attempt and she was sure to give off no signs. She was happy because she knew how everything would go. During that attempt, as she was bleeding out from her legs, sitting in her blood - something registered with her. The love of her family. Something filled with much light had overcome her. In that moment, at that moment - she realized she didn't want to die, she had to find another way. Slowly but surely, her hope had been restored. She, indeed, had a heart of hope.


Table full of books and CHEETAH Movement cards


Standing at the table signing books 

Telling the journey 

Showing the journey

Fighter 

My lovely

Big Sis got her a copy & rocking her CHEETAH accent




Grandma came to support. Cherish them!

This book and release is all I could hope for and more. You can find "A Heart of Hope" on Amazon but I strongly encourage mailing them directly to you and personalizing them. To obtain a personalize, signed copy - please email me at cheetahmovement5@gmail.com your mailing address, from there you will recieve another email for invoice. Looking forward to mailing them out to you all. Thank you guys for your support. Cheetahs! Yeah, Y'all Rock!!! Stay authentic and be true to YOU! -K, xo

104 THE HEAT - segment on CHEETAH Movement




Check out this full segment on 104theheat.com -----> 104THEHEAT CM segment <-------- on CHEETAH Movement by host, Karena. So Honored to KNOW this woman! This woman is just amazinggg. She's worked with artists from TupacDiamond, Ashanti, Nelly, Alicia Keys, etc..the list goes on. You just never who's watching or who you inspire. I'm so proud to be a young woman but most of all, I'm so so proud to be me. 🙌🏽 I've never thought I'd be a voice for something such as mental health and self harm. I JUST always had a connection with CHEETAHS. Not knowing that I'd had to go through something like this to actually find that main source of where the connection came from and most of all, find my purpose! I can resonate with their strength and will to run and keeping running and thrive for what they want and what they believe!! Also, their desire to persevere through whatever obstacle may come their way. We are all CHEETAHS, some of us just doesn't know it yet. 🐆✨ -Kenidra ❤️

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SCARS poem by Jada Carrington (Dedicated to Kenidra Woods)


A TRIBUTE TO JADA


Jada has not only been such an inspiration in my life but many others around here. Her spirit and her heart is oh so genuine. Her poetry comes from a place of pain, they are so heartfelt. She goes through depression and days where she feels that she's less than but each day she fights, she fights not only for herself but for others. Poetry gets her through, it's her outlet. They have helped me ways unexplainable. Her poetry is like no other, she's truly touched by God. Jada, you are a very special asset to this world. You're one of a kind. I could go on and on about you but I just want to wish you a very special HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! Let's show the world what you're made of! Thank you from the bottom of my heart for this dedication to me and just for everything. I pray that God continues to enlarge your platform and bless you in EVERYTHING you do! Much love beautiful! 🙏❤️🎈

Here I present SCARS by Jada Carrington, a dedication to me :
Scars (Dedication to Kenidra Woods)

By: Jada Carrington

Mirror, mirror on the wall, who's the strongest of them all?
I used to think I was invincible, limitless and all knowing and no one could tell me otherwise,
I was young and naive, but I was so innocent,
hand made by God, sweet and valuable much like the fruit in the garden of Eden.
See I was special, my essence held all the secrets to the world, I was forbidden fruit,
beautiful but not meant for consumption.
God said the harvest was plentiful and that you could eat from any other tree,
and yet you still managed to let your serpent deceive you.
You ate from my tree of knowledge,
You made me conscious of my body before it even had a chance to develop.
Now I'm cursed with sinful thoughts and I don't know how to get rid of them.
You brought hell into my life and now even my angels have pitchforks,
I guess that's why bad things always felt so good. I miss being an angel.
I wish I could go back to when playing with dolls was my life,
everything was pretend and no one had any ulterior motives,
but sadly I can't, this is reality and my life is not a game.
Why didn't anyone tell me that grown men aren't supposed to play with little girls that way?
I thought everybody played like that. I trusted you.
You were supposed to protect me from all the big bad wolves like the ones we used to read
about, not become one. Little girls are not meant to be prey,
and I keep praying for my happy ever after ending but I'm getting tired,
my mouth has already been going a thousand miles per hour,
and I've ran out of words.
Written in scars are the stories I could never explain.
Every scar had a novel on its tongue and it was razor blade sharp,
just like the blades I became very familiar with.
Is it wrong that I have more slashes on my body than years I have on this earth?
Am I wrong for thinking that the only way to ease my pain is to enhance it?
They say the truth cuts deep, well I must be the most honest person on this planet.
Some days I don't even want to be on this planet
but I know that there's people depending on me so I stay,
but isn't it crazy, the same rope I use to help pull you out of your hell
is the same rope I want to wrap around my neck to end mine.
Depression is so two faced, helped me to find my purpose
but keeps trying to stop me from living in it.
It took over my life, so I tried to take my own, a few times.
What's the point of staying alive when you're already spiritually dead?
I swear having a mental illness sucks.
Some days it feels like there's a fire inside my mind and there's nobody to come to my rescue,
other days it feels like I'm drowning in water and there's no one to pull me out,
and then there's those days where the fire and the water inside of my head just cancels each
other out and I feel nothing at all.
I guess I have to play with the cards I was dealt even if it's the game of solitary.
I may be alone but at least I hold all the cards
and even though I've taken so many loses, I'm not going to stop playing until I win.
I am a winner, God made me that way.
So yeah I may get sad sometimes but that does not define me.
I may feel alone sometimes but that does not define me.
I may have a mental illness but that does not define me either.
What defines me is that I am still here even though the odds are against me,
what defines me is that I refuse to give up
and everything that I have overcome in my life is what makes me a warrior
and so when I look in the mirror and look at all my scars both mental and physical
where I once saw shame and defeat,
I now see power, I see accomplishment and I see a story that is worth sharing to the whole entire world.
Mirror, mirror on the wall, who's the strongest of them all?

....I AM

UPDATE ON MY DIVINE JOURNEY!!!


*Update* I am Kenidra Woods, 16 years old. I am based in St.Louis, MO. Founder of CHEETAH Movement advocating for mental health and the prevention of self harm and suicide. C.H.E.E.T.A.H Movement stands for Confidence, Harmony, Enlightenment, Encouragement, Tranquility, Awareness, and Hope. Through my struggles and hardships I discovered my divine purpose - to inspire, save, and change lives. On this divine mission, I've had the opportunity of making several appearances and doing speaking engagements first for the Jumpoff Radio with Mesh Neal - "Winning The Battle"  ( http://www.blogtalkradio.com/meshneal/2016/03/15/winning-the-battle-with-kenidra-woods ) 




                         

Not after I spoke in Tucson, AZ covering the importance of forgiveness, speaking out, healing, and simply letting them know that they're not alone with KVOANEWS4 (http://www.kvoa.com/clip/12396105/from-self-harm-to-self-awareness)

Live with Kgun9 Morning Blend
( http://www.kgun9.com/morning-blend/kenidra-woods-cheetah-movement)

                       


I was also featured in the L.A sentinel newspaper for CHEETAH Movement twice. The first time being for the great achievements on saving lives that I've made -- ( https://lasentinel.net/teenage-self-harm-activist-kenidra-woods-taking-world-by-storm.html ) and the other being for my short film, "A HEART OF HOPE" that I've just released ( https://lasentinel.net/16-year-old-mental-health-advocate-keindra-woods-creates-inspirational-short-film.html ) Not long after I released "A HEART OF HOPE" - the ARTWITHIMPACT organization did a suprising feature on it!! ( http://www.artwithimpact.org/teen-mental-health-advocate-releases-short-film-depression/ ) link to short film ----> https://www.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=1122817727800345&id=100002163863966 <----


Along the way on this journey I've set up a blog for CHEETAH Movement, my blog ( cheetahmvmt.blogspot.com ) is where different individuals around the country or world even can share their stories and it's a way for them to express themselves in a way only they can submit their
poetry, music, fiction, art, video, photography, etc. to me. This is not only my story but this is OURstory, I'm speaking out for the ones remains silent because they are afraid to speak out. I'm letting them know that it's okay to speak out and that it doesn't show weakness but a tremendous amount of strength.



 I've just did the first Teen Talk interview Tele-Seminar of the year of 2017 with host, teen therapist, and founder of dearteenself, Jaynay Johnson. I talked about how I overcame the deep depression that I was in and most importantly how did I turn that struggle into strength! I encourage everyone to listen. This is where I'm so real and open about my journey. ( https://fccdl.in/xTZWBY8bG )


Despite, all that I've been through - I stand, speaking my truth and feeling unashamed while doing so.
*Just an update catching you all up on all that has happened* I love you CHEETAHS. You guys rock 🤘🏽❤️

-Kenidra